I thought I'll be fine

Hi, I'm Mahirah

 

"I'm not fine" is not easy to tell as compared to "I'm fine" 

I walked home crying because I miss you so much. I can't believe it has been 2years since you've left.

It's always this time of the month, I feel like shit. :(

I still text your number. I still wait like a fool. I still hope for a miracle to happen. I guess miracle only exists when both parties are still living. So how can I still foolishly hoping for a miracle when you ain't even here?

I deleted all your pictures. I thought that will be the fastest way for me to stop thinking about you. However, I forgot that my brain is still working. The memories we spent in the past still linger in my mind whenever the time of the month comes. 

I hate this. I want to see you again but I can't. Good bye? No, I refuse to say that. NO, NO. I need to say Good bye. I didn't even get to meet you for the last time. I'm terribly sorry for delaying our meet-up. That is still my greatest regret in life. 

You were the best person I've ever known yet I didn't appreciated it. I am stupid.

:( Thank you for always loving me.

accept me

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

Why is life's unfair?

I'm not alone.

I'm not the only one suffering in this world.

The truth is everyone's suffering in this selfish world.

Yes, selfish is the word.

The word which suits the world I'm living in.

We're all selfish.

I am selfish too. :(

I wish I wasn't.

I keep secrets which I've never told anyone before.

I keep these secrets closely to my heart and not wanting to share them with anyone at all because I'm selfish.

SELFISH.

Let's admit it, all of us, human beings, are similar.

See the word?

SIMILAR?

We've been hurt, lied to, used by, betrayed, lost, insecure.

We've all been through that.

So it makes us similar, right?

True, not everyone gone through the same situations and obstacles in life but at the end of the day, we felt the same pain, agony and torture.

We're similar but not the same and can never be exactly the same.

And that's part of life :(

What a way to start my post..

Oh bummer, haha!

Okay, I'm not emo-ing or sad or anything got to do to make my smile turns upside down.

I'm actually happy with my life ^^

:D

HEHE ^^

If you're following me on twitter, you'll probably know why I'm happy.

HEHE.

Not going to tell you.

LOL.

So apparently, well uploading photos from my phone to my laptop, I realised that I do have A LOT of photos to be uploaded.

HAHA!
But i upload only a few.
HEHE.

So my blog is be filled with unglam, random, inappropriate photos taken by myself and my younger sister.

:D

You can simply click the red 'X' button when your eyes are sore or bored while looking at my photos.

HAHA!

I miss my brother.
I hope he's doing well with his training :)
Dear Tuhan, please look after my brother closely.
<3