the who, no the them.

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

These few days, i'm a sad girl.

Earth is an ugly place to live in.

Everyone is similar.

:(

We're all similar, we're not same.

:(

I've deleted some people from fb.

Why?

Because i wanna keep my social network a safe network.

:(

Though i am close to some of them, i still delete them.

:(

Sorry.

:(

I'm too sad right now.

Very sad that even ice-cream doesn't help.

But i'm fine now.

But i am still sad.

:(

Today i wont be crying but instead, i will be thinking to myself why am i living and think differently from others.

:(

"Failure is unimportant. It takes courage to make a fool of yourself." -Charlie Chaplin

but where has this lead me to? sadness. :(

i'm so lost :(

People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.

omg, i think i build too much walls. :(

: O

:(

 i'm a very sad girl right now :(

:( bye, my readers.

SAY WHAT? FFFFRRRRREEEEEEEDDDDDDDOOOOOOMMMMMMMM!

Hi, I'm Mahirah

see the girl above?

yes, she's free from school.

(Y)

Hello! Hello! My lovely readers!

I'm a very happy girl right now!

Because my exam has just ended a few hours ago ^^

Yippie.

Though POA doesnt seem easy, IDC~

Since it's time to PARTTYYYYYYYYYYY~

HEHE ^^

Met Amir after school and he said, i've grown fatter.

What a compliment eh boy! D:

HAHA!

Who cares if I'm fat as long as food makes me HAPPY ^^

So i guess many people are in a low spirit, due to friendship, relationship, enemy, family and maybe school.

TSK.

We can never run away from problems, instead it keeps haunting you day by day to be more precise.

So let's treat these problems/ conflicts as our best friend(s) yea?

We must face them with courage, enthusiasm and love <3

Love is the cure to almost every problem in this world :D

HAHA!

I typed as though i'm a kid with no problem dealing with problems.

XD

Anyways, I can't wait to meet up with my friends and March Babies ^^

Going to work later and I have to remove my nail polish :(

HEHE ^^

Till then enjoy my pictures :D

haha! selengeh face ~

I <3 RUBY GLOOM ^^

SKULL BOY and RUBY GLOOM look cute together.

HEHE.

Lenka is the most incredible pop singer, i've ever known ^^
Love her.
Hehe :D
Do buy her 2nd album called '2' :D

2011.

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

My 2011 is a bad start.

:(

I wish I wasn't naive or selfish.

Dear Amir, 

I don't know whether you are angry, annoyed, disappointed or unhappy with me.

But I totally deserve whatever shitty feelings you're having about me now and yesterday. 

:(

I am A BAD friend.

When you needed me the most, I wasn't there for you.

:(

I wish we will be fine soon.

really really soon.

I miss telling you how work was, i miss eating ice-cream with you, i miss losing a bet with you, i miss smsing you, i miss calling you, i miss your jacket, i miss your jokes, i miss you laughter, i miss your ringtone, i miss your wink, basically, I miss you alot. 

:(

Dear god, 

please look after amir when i'm not with him.

Yes, people may think I'm behaving like a fool to cry for you.

But you worth my tears, because you're one of a kind.

:(

and you said: move along move along, like i know you do

Anyways, hope new year's been great for all of you! :D
loves, mahirah.

a rough time

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

I'm not a cheerful person.

After work, faiz asked me to meet him.

I didn't want to but he managed to persuade me.

I'm glad he managed to persuade me or else their plan of making me a surprise would be a waste.

:)

I'm seriously touched by the cookies baked by 4 handsome, charming and adorable gentlemen. 

Who are they?

Faiz, Fendi, Rid and Amir. <3

Haha.

And yes amir, thanks for the ice-cream:)

3years have passed by so quickly. And I have to agree many things have happened. Been through lots of happiness, sadness and naiveness. And i come to realise that I'm still the same old me. Yes, I am.

I used to think , after breaking up with my boyfriend which happens a long long time ago, I became someone who doesn't care about anything and someone who isn't serious about relationship or takes guy for granted. But i guess i'm not. I'm serious about my life. I'm concern with what i do/ say to someone. I may be blur and dumb for not getting hints about people liking me but I do take things seriously. I'm always laughing, giggling and snorting but deep down I'm thinking about my life. I hurt few people who care about me and I'm sorry about it. Sorry? I know forgiveness isn't enough but that's all i could do. I'm a sad girl who learns how to smile in order to think positively. No one's a happy person in this world. No one is but they become a happy soul due to the fact they have someone to love/ show concern or someone who treasures him/ her. :)

However, I'm still looking forward to my death because I believe the reason for me living is to wait for death:)

And the life i'm living right now, is challenges set for me before making me lead a heaven's life after death.

Amir: when's the time you think we're became closer?

Me: errr. for me, it's the time when we bought ice-cream and had a long talk about each of our own's relationships.

Amir: Same for me. That's why I'm planning to buy the same ice-cream we had last 3years.

Me: Flashback?

Amia: Yes, i guess. 

Me: Sure. since you're buying them not me.

Amir: You could still crack a joke when i'm trying to be serious. That's why i fall for you.

Me: How should i replied you then?

 Both: *Laughs*

i'm glad we talked about it.

but i'll let you go since it's the best for us.

:D

no SS3

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

(credit: google)

No, SS3 for me because I love my mommy.

I wanna go SS3 so badly.

But because I love my mommy, I'm going to skip SS3.

I wish life wasn't tough for my family.

Oh well, I guess it's my fate.

I hope by 25, I'm going to be independent.

No more asking for allowance from my parents, contribute in house's bills, give mommy grocery's allowance and buy new shoe/ bag/ clothes for mommy every month. I hope I could do all these for my mom before I'm 25. :) 

going to sleep and wake up for sch which is starting at 11am.

Sorry for a boring post.

Amir, you're such a dork and I love the way we fight over something that make us think about us.

You're the best man in my life, much better than my ex-boyf which happens to be your best friend and gay partner:) Thanks to you, I feel that my life seems fun and boring at times.

<3

single. claims to be unavailable.

i don't get why some bother to be rude

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

 I wish sister was half of me.

Camp was tiring and fun.
The fun did not last. However, it gets more and more annoying after knowing the fact that my sister wasn't having a great time. Don't worry sis, whatever happens take it cool. But I'm not letting matters go that simple. And, whoever is reading this post and start to bitch about me or my sister, you're a pathetic soul. :)

----------------------------------------------

So amir and I had a talk and things went well. I'm terribly sorry for saying stupid stuffs. I really do. But you do know that I really like you and doesn't want us to go bad. I wanna let you know how grateful I am to be able to know you. I really do. <3

Yesterday, I met up with Wahidah before meeting Amir.

HAHA.

It was fun hanging out with her. I miss laughing and being annoyed with her for randomly hooking me up with random strangers. HAHA. Wahidah told me to write a letter to her in my blog. So here's a letter for Wahidah :]

Dear Bitchy Wahidah,

if your life turns bad, don't look for me. But do call me. Why can't you look for me? Because you have to learn to tell me your problems on the phone. Like what you told me yesterday,

you wanna try to share with me your problems on the telephone,instead of always running to find me. HAHA. See, I am very nice to consider our yesterday's conversation. And girl, you're a bitch. So be proud of it. Why, Most bitches are pretty and sexy. Which is totally like you. Hence, you are a bitch. OH shit, I'm lying. I called you a bitch because you always put me in awk-ward situation. HAHA. See how truthfully I am to you. HAHA. Lastly, I wanna tell you that all the things I type above for you isn't sincerely from me.

The sincere letter I would like you to read is :

You're funny, silly and very lovable.

I like the fact that you could tell me your personal problems with me face-to-face. It shows how much you trust me. I like you being random and never fails to put me in awkward situation. It shows how much I can accept you for whom you are. I like you for being cool about everything. Even though, some find you a bitch or a weirdo, you are cool about it. It makes me like you even more. And girl, you are fuckingly beautiful. And If I were a boy, I would like you to be my girlfriend. Because I can tell that you're someone who is willing to change for a guy who loves you and you don't bother about looks. Instead you help guy build up their self-esteem. You're very awesome Wahidah. I'm glad to have a friend like you. HEHE.

Next time, we hang out, it'll be my treat:]

Love, Mahirah (your fantastic friend, HAHA. prasan eh aku!)

& ZAD,I MISS HANGING OUT WITH YOU