maybe i was in the wrong.

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

i'm sorry for not trying to understand you.

yes, i'm bad at replying people's text.

i'm sorry.

i'm very sorry fendi. :(

injection is killing me indirectly. :(

i wish i'm okay in a few hours time since i'm going sch later and not to forget work. 

i miss GPG. :'(

i wish i wasn't naive and things go back to normal.

today isn't a bad day but a sad day.

i wish i don't think too much.

:(

i'll be fine soon.

i just need faiz to cheer me up:S

OE poyeyes

hi, i'm mahirah

i hate everything about me, yet i'm a happy person.

oh yes, i've moved on in a positive way.

to those who received my texts, thanks for being there for me when things were rough.

especially wahidah:)

dear wahidah, my sexy and prettyhead friend, thanks for texting me over and over again to check whether i'm okay. :) syg awak. hehe.

and to look back, i'm not a strong person.

because if i am, i won't be whining about my unhappiness or sadness.

:) i'm just a person who learns how to let go of things easily, i'm ain't a strong person.

only FOR OE POPEYES OWLS :

by the end of month, eye-bags are my best facial features.

by the end of the month, my house electric bill will be boomz.

by the end of the month, my indon would improve.

by the end of the month, i will become snow white.

by the end of the month, i will be super becok.

by the end of the month, i would be missing all of you.

because cambodia is calling me soon:(

No matter how many bad things were to happen to me by the end of the month, I'll still <3 all of you.

Thanks for making work seems tireless and fun.

<3

it's funny how i can still joke around when i'm kinda pissed off.

well, you can't blame me because i'm not a very serious person.

:)

laugher is free.

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

I'm a girl but i wish i was a boy.

when i want to be serious, circumstances won't let me.

when i'm not serious, people dislike me.

in the end, i become a contradicting person.

i wish i'm pretty,

i wish i'm kind,

i wish i'm soft-hearted,

i wish i'm cute,

i wish i'm flawless,

am i asking too much?

no, i don't think so.

because i believe everyone deserves to voice out what they want.

even though, it may not happen.

i smile, i giggle, i laugh, deep down, i'm crying.

i cried on the back home after taking digital camera from sze ling.

it feels great after crying your heart out.

:)

it really does.

thanks for the hug wahidah.

i really need it.

:)

i know i'll be able to pull myself up after being pushed down by reality.

like most of my friends said i'm a strong person, and you who said i'm the strongest girl you've  ever met. 

so until then, i'll be strong until my heart and soul tells me i'm back.

K.O

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

I wish I'm pretty.

Suddenly, your words delivered to me yesterday hit me so badly today. :(

Yes, I don't show others I'm serious about my life that's the reason why I lost lots of wonderful people who used to be in my life, and that includes you. :(

On the way back home, my MP3 plays los of sad songs :(

(8nov, 2010: i changed my relationship status form single to in an open relationship)

(11nov, 2010: you told me we can't keep on going like this)

(14nov, 2010: i cried so badly, losing you is a pain that i haven't had in a really long time)

14nov, 2010 @night:
we had a talk then laugh but yet it's still such a pain.
i told you i was fine, i was lying.
and i know you know i was lying
and you know i know, you was lying.
and yet, we pretend we're cool about letting things go.
now, who's fault is it that we both turn out to be liars?
sadly, we have ourselves to blame for not being brave enough to take up this challenge.
i'm a sag girl with nothing but fake smiles to make things turn out to be fine, what about you on the other hand? i know you probably be behaving and feeling way awful than i am.
:(

I'm a sad girl right now but i'll motivate myself to be strong and move on.

a rough time

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

I'm not a cheerful person.

After work, faiz asked me to meet him.

I didn't want to but he managed to persuade me.

I'm glad he managed to persuade me or else their plan of making me a surprise would be a waste.

:)

I'm seriously touched by the cookies baked by 4 handsome, charming and adorable gentlemen. 

Who are they?

Faiz, Fendi, Rid and Amir. <3

Haha.

And yes amir, thanks for the ice-cream:)

3years have passed by so quickly. And I have to agree many things have happened. Been through lots of happiness, sadness and naiveness. And i come to realise that I'm still the same old me. Yes, I am.

I used to think , after breaking up with my boyfriend which happens a long long time ago, I became someone who doesn't care about anything and someone who isn't serious about relationship or takes guy for granted. But i guess i'm not. I'm serious about my life. I'm concern with what i do/ say to someone. I may be blur and dumb for not getting hints about people liking me but I do take things seriously. I'm always laughing, giggling and snorting but deep down I'm thinking about my life. I hurt few people who care about me and I'm sorry about it. Sorry? I know forgiveness isn't enough but that's all i could do. I'm a sad girl who learns how to smile in order to think positively. No one's a happy person in this world. No one is but they become a happy soul due to the fact they have someone to love/ show concern or someone who treasures him/ her. :)

However, I'm still looking forward to my death because I believe the reason for me living is to wait for death:)

And the life i'm living right now, is challenges set for me before making me lead a heaven's life after death.

Amir: when's the time you think we're became closer?

Me: errr. for me, it's the time when we bought ice-cream and had a long talk about each of our own's relationships.

Amir: Same for me. That's why I'm planning to buy the same ice-cream we had last 3years.

Me: Flashback?

Amia: Yes, i guess. 

Me: Sure. since you're buying them not me.

Amir: You could still crack a joke when i'm trying to be serious. That's why i fall for you.

Me: How should i replied you then?

 Both: *Laughs*

i'm glad we talked about it.

but i'll let you go since it's the best for us.

:D

i'm not happy. i just learn to smile and let it go.

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

Ever start your day with bad news? Well, i just experienced it:0

:(

I'll be strong and move on.

I believe i can do it since I've experienced this more than twice.

I won't ask you why the sudden change or why must you do this to me.

I'll respect your decision and I'll be fine just like how you wish I'll be.

It won't be that quick, but soon i'll be normal again.

Like you used to said: I'm the strongest girl you've met so far.

So I won't disappoint you, I'll make sure you're right about that and we'll pass by these days perfectly fine.

with you or without you, my world will be different but i believe it'll get better.:)

the only way to get it better isn't by waiting and letting time heals my pain but motivate myself to be strong and move on.

dear facebook

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

Facebook's font is small right?

Sch. Sch. Sch.

Lessons have always been super boring and social networks are getting boring too.

:0

I feel sleeping and doing nothing at all are the two best things to do in life.

(Y)

Haha.

I sound like a lazy person, oh well, I am:)

Seems like I can't work much on NOV & DEC. :(

Nov, I will be busy with photography class and Dec, I will be at Cambodia for around 4-5days? Then after Cambodia, I have to do my group project. :(

HAIZ.

Really looking forward to the next 6-weeks of holidays.

:)

I believe time pass by quickly.

Dear Amir,

Thanks for the card.

You're awesome.

(Peace my love)

(ugly? haha! yes, i'm always very ugly. )

no SS3

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

(credit: google)

No, SS3 for me because I love my mommy.

I wanna go SS3 so badly.

But because I love my mommy, I'm going to skip SS3.

I wish life wasn't tough for my family.

Oh well, I guess it's my fate.

I hope by 25, I'm going to be independent.

No more asking for allowance from my parents, contribute in house's bills, give mommy grocery's allowance and buy new shoe/ bag/ clothes for mommy every month. I hope I could do all these for my mom before I'm 25. :) 

going to sleep and wake up for sch which is starting at 11am.

Sorry for a boring post.

Amir, you're such a dork and I love the way we fight over something that make us think about us.

You're the best man in my life, much better than my ex-boyf which happens to be your best friend and gay partner:) Thanks to you, I feel that my life seems fun and boring at times.

<3

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