EXAM!

Hi, I'm Mahirah

What? Exam is tomorrow?

Omg! My exam is tomorrow D:

But it's something to look forward to, since it means my holiday is nearby ^^

I hope my beloved boyfriend(s) wont be so hard on me ^^

Since i've been studying about them for the past week, i hope they don't cheat my feelings and everything goes smoothly for me ^^

Amin:)

hehe:D

Good luck to myself and NP-IANS.

Sorry for the boring post.

Will try to upload an interesting post the next time i blog :)

Till then my readers :)

Enjoy mugging/ partying/ schooling :D

gee. why is Matt Lanter so hot? :D

dear matt lanter, i'm very light.

will you carry me too? :D

haha!

dream on ^^

light or darkness

i have weird fingers' structure

dream

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

I guess i think too much sometimes.

So i woke up this afternoon after having a dream/ maybe nightmare? 

Erm..

The dream wasn't so bad that it should be called nightmare.

Neither was the dream that good to be called a good dream.

Okay, back to my dream.

I dreamt that I had to take care of a baby.

I don't really like babies as they're noisy but I do wanna have a baby on my own in the future.

So, in the dream, i had no idea how the Hell i got the baby but the baby was in my hands all the time while i was on the way back home from work in the MRT.

The baby cried but i managed to make it stop crying and i found myself being attached to the baby.

Weird. 

HAHA!

But I did felt happy looking at the baby smile.

Ahh, so innocent looking.

:)

But when i got home, my mom didn't approve of the baby.

Oh hell yeah, she wont approve.

I mean, which mom would want their own daughter who is a teenager adopt a baby?

HAHA!

Then i was sad but i managed to convince my mom to keep the baby.

*Skip the part on how i took care of the baby and studying at the same time*

However, it only lasted for 2days.

I cried when i was to let go of the baby.

And that's the end of my dream as i was being woken up by my sexy alarm tone.

So i absolutely have NO idea where i let go of the baby, who are the parents of the baby and what happened after i cry.

HAHA!

Then after i woke up, three things came to my mind:

1. Baby makes you happy for some unexplainable reasons.

2. Teenagers with baby have to drop out of school because it is true that they cannot cope with studies and baby at the same time, it is super hard.

3. I have to study!

So in 1 week, i can PARTY.

WEE~

I can't wait.

So i'll live in hell for this 1 week, after that, i can enjoy my 6weeks of holidays!

:D:D:D:D

Happy, very very happy.

Meet-ups, Birthday celebrations, Shopping, Working

I can't waittttttttttttttt ^^

HAHA!

Good luck to all NP who is taking their exam this week and next week.

if i told you, i like you

will you like me back?

i doubt so.

you're too innocent to think i'm serious

or i'm too friendly to everyone till you think i am joking with you.

:(

i wish i know how to be girl-y, pretty, sexy, cute, smart, gentle, caring, awesome, bimbo, or any of the girlfriend material.

then maybe you'll notice me

:(

i'm not pretty, i should just give up on you

:(

Amir: Oi, Piggy! Why you like him but not me?

Me: I like you who said i dont like you. You are annoying you know that?

Amir: You made me be annoying :)

Me: Oh really. HEHE ^^

Amir: Crazy.. HAHA! 

Me: Go entertain your admirer loh.

Amir: Ok, bb.

(SAD, he really never entertain me after that. )

I think i'm a really boring person to both Amir and DS.

:(

HAIZ.

Anyways, Happy Wednesday Everyone.

mahirah ends her post here.

till then enjoy your mugging/ holidays/ work/ school.

tell me

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

i know how to like but not love someone.

Ever miss somebody, who has been gone from your life, so much that you wish you're dead so you could be with him/ her?

:( i've always wish i'm dead so that i could be with him.

So how's feb been for most of you?

Mine was kinda bad.

:(

But i still manage to have a crush on someone.

Good?

Nah, it sucks.

It sucks because I'm always happy when i think of him.

And when I think of him, I feel bad.

I feel bad because I'll think of Zad :(

And when I think of Zad, I'll feel sad.

And when I'm sad, I'll feel suckish.

And the cycle goes on and on.

D:

Exam's starting next 2weeks (28feb-2march).

I can't wait.

Cause after exam, I can PARTY all I want.

WEE~

And March is going to be a good month for me, I hope.

Since most of my close friends and best friend Birthday falls on the month of March:)

HEHE.

Nvm, if i turn bankrupt because i spend alot of money on their present :)

:D

I think i'll end my post with quotes and my pictures ;)

okay~

Happy Studying NP Students

And Happy Holidays to Other Poly Students :)

my reality

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

This is going to be a sad post.

Reality hits me so hard and badly the moment i woke up :(

Woke up this morning only after getting a few hours of sleep :/

And , yes, i'm feeling very lousy right now :|

Dear mahirah, please wake up NOW.

He's gone.

Really gone for NOW.

Gone from your life and from everyone's life :(

Why am i being selfish and think that I'm the only one who's suffering from his lost?

His family would be in a worser state than I am right now :(

It's been months and yet, i'm not moving on strongly.

I'm not strong.

And will NEVER be.

Stop telling me to be strong.

It makes me sick.

So sick that death is all that i could think about.

Go for counselling?

It'll just make me worst.

Trust me, been there and done that.

I HATE counselling.

Hate the fact that all my darkest secrets will not be secrets anymore.

No one can help me except for myself.

But i'm not helping myself at all.

I just keep on hurting myself.

I wish I could forget things easily.

I really do.

People said stop complaining about your life, you should be grateful of what you have.

Someone out there will always be suffering more than you do.

Yes, someone's out there is suffering more than i am.

I wish I suffer more than what I'm suffering now. :(

Ever wonder what it feels like to be me?

Have you ever been so poor that you don't eat and lose your electricity?

Ever been stalked by man?

Ever been molested by an old man?

Ever been looked down on because of pimples and scar?

Ever been home-less?

Ever been cheated by someone you love so much because them grow you up?

Ever used your own money to buy all your desire- ice-cream, handphone, shoe, shirts, bag, calculator?

All that i've mentioned are what i've been through all these years.

But i never complain about my life to my loved ones because if i do, i'm being selfish and self-centered because they've been there with me :(

Dear all,

Advice makes me sick and hate myself more.

Seriously.

I hate myself but i still choose to believe that maybe 10 years down the road, I am going to be the happiest person on earth.

Time is all i need now.

I dont know how much time i may take to move on but time is all i need.

So much for saying i'm changing for the better, i guess i'm not changing.

:(

Ice-cream is all i want for now.

Shall head down to buy ice-cream after studying for SpeechComm

And i shall do my video while i eat ice-cream :)

Sorry for being selfish, self-centered, unhappy, ungrateful and mean.

I wish I'm not me.

I wish I'm stronger, happier, grateful, nicer and proud of myself and my life.

:(

Dear all of my friends,

do trust me that every moment i spend with you are the happiest moment of my life.

I swear that I never regret knowing all of you, although i do said that sometimes, i don't really mean it. 

I'm thankful that you are there for me when i'm a very very sad girl.

I'm thankful that you make me feel as though i'm the happiest girl on earth sometimes.

I'm thankful that i always feel i'm a good person when i told you about my pasts and present.

I'm thankful that I'm always smiling and laughing when you're around.

I'm thankful for everything you've done:)

Sincerely Mahirah, your piggy, domo, mahilala, dimplemonster and pendek.

<3

hello kitty is so cute! hehe.

confidence

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

haha, no2 that's not my middle finger. :)

So how's CNY for all of you?

I guess my classmates probably ain't enjoying their CNY.

Since most of them are busy finishing up/ doing their POA project , just like me :(

Hopefully i meet Smitha later :)

It's been a zillion years since I met her :(

Miss her very very very much.

GEHEHE. <3

Dear Amir, I'm sorry for making you feel disappointed.

It's because you care about me, you told me the truth most of the time.

And I really appreciate it.

You're making me like you even more best boy-friend :D

HEHE.

Thank god, he replied me like finally if not me emo.

Emo-ing not good cause it's unhealthy. :)

HAHA.

School's starting soon when i barely have fun :(

Tmr and sun i'll be working :)

something to look forward to since i'll be noisy and crazy during work   :D

see the girl above?

yes she loves domo.

she laughs, she smiles and always look cheerful when you see her around.

she's hot and cold but chill most of the time.

when she gets angry, she cools down easily.

it's either you can be close to her or not at all.

she doesn't find a need to be friendly with everyone as that'll only cause backstabbing, hatred and unhappiness.

she's also a girl who likes to seek reasons to everything that happens around her.

due to that, she always hate herself and find herself pathetic.

lucky for her, she knows what true friends are and know what it feels like to be thankful for whatever happens she doesn't complain over unnecessary matters and thinks maturely.

she doesnt need anyone who is childish and doesnt know true hardship to be close to her,

because these people will never survive in the outside world.

"there isn't a need for you/anyone to know my reflection because reflection are just words which most of us can fake about. deep thoughts you told yourself and only to those you really trust, that's a true reflection which i truly admire."

a-do-ra-bl-e

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

He said: Mahirah is freaking adorable.

Tomorrow is going to be chinese new year eve! :D

YEAH!

Tomorrow's i'll end school at 11am.

Muahaha! 

Very very happy.

And today i check my pay and yes, i'm a rich girl now.

HEHE.

Went back home and met Amir,

We ate ice-cream, giggled, played chopstick, poking each other and he fiddled my phone.

Evil him, hacked into my social network account.

:)

But i still like him.

I wanna have a cool, cute, understanding boyfriend like him.

Thank god, for letting me know him :)

Went back home and took pictures of myself.

Hence, my blog is going to be filled with my ugly photos.

hehe.

however, i still hope that you, readers, will like it.

I find my photos amusing as they are ugly :D

Oh well, it's because i'm ugly.
Hence, i'm only good at producing ugly pictures. :)

I'll end here for now and let you enjoy my pictures:)

Ramen Ten :D

i'm working part-time in popeyes :D

love my job <3

mahirah oh mahirah!

haha.

sorry for being ugly yet wanna try hard to be pretty.

:)

so true quotes ~

isn't it true alice?

yes, i'm healed by all the heartbreaks i gave myself.

to those people whom i have broke their hearts, have all of you healed?

oh yes! i wanna get away from it all.
but i love my family.
 i don't think i'll go away that far ^^

hehe. does this mean, i always make the best decision?

haha.

yes, smiling and being happy are two different things :)

:'( sorry zad.

i'm glad rid and fendi and i are friends again :)

<3

this is why we have to motivate ourselves to move on.

hehe. i'll never forget all of my closest friends <3

so please stop complaining , it's annoying.

-.-

just like how amir thinks i'm everything- pretty, funny, smart, adorable, talented and list goes on.

:)

:[ 

<3

hehe. hi, i'm single.

do tell me if you like me.

i'll give you a chance.

erm.. not wait, i dont really give people chance.

it's either, i can be with you/ i totally can't be with you.

i'm simple.

haha!

:( 

valentine's day coming!

i'm going to be single.

:)

very very very happy!

hehe.

it's been 4years since i'm single.

<3

no chocolate this time, but i want a domo instead.

haha.

i wanna have an attic in my house please :)

before i end, i wanna wish all of you an advanced Happy Lunar New Year.

<3