I thought I'll be fine

Hi, I'm Mahirah

 

"I'm not fine" is not easy to tell as compared to "I'm fine" 

I walked home crying because I miss you so much. I can't believe it has been 2years since you've left.

It's always this time of the month, I feel like shit. :(

I still text your number. I still wait like a fool. I still hope for a miracle to happen. I guess miracle only exists when both parties are still living. So how can I still foolishly hoping for a miracle when you ain't even here?

I deleted all your pictures. I thought that will be the fastest way for me to stop thinking about you. However, I forgot that my brain is still working. The memories we spent in the past still linger in my mind whenever the time of the month comes. 

I hate this. I want to see you again but I can't. Good bye? No, I refuse to say that. NO, NO. I need to say Good bye. I didn't even get to meet you for the last time. I'm terribly sorry for delaying our meet-up. That is still my greatest regret in life. 

You were the best person I've ever known yet I didn't appreciated it. I am stupid.

:( Thank you for always loving me.

not my usual life

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

I want my face to be acne free :(

Been working that I barely use my laptop to tweet/ tumblr/ blog.

:(

I'm so tired but I'm going work later.

AHHH, what a life.

I want my rest!

MY HOLIDAYYYYYYYYY!

OMG.

:(

If money were that easy to obtain.

ZZZZZ.

Life's so tough.

Money, MONEY, Money.

How old am I again?

Why am I always thinking of money?

Dear Mommy, can you enlighten my worries?

Who am I kidding?

I'm supposed to be the one enlightening her worries and burden, I'm her child afterall.

Received a letter from the school regarding my attendance.

LOL.

I only didnt come for that module once and I got a reminder.

HAHA!

Oh well, I'll come for the rest of the lessons next time.

HEHE.

Winnie the Pooh is such a sweetie and awesome character.

Never fails to provide awesome quotes.

:)

I'll end my post with winnie the pooh's quotes.

winnie the pooh's movie is coming out ^^
I can't wait to watch it.
HEHE.
<3
If winnie the pooh exists in my life, i won't be depress or sad but happy to be able to face challenges in life :)

I love my BESTIE <3

anything and everything= love.

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

I <3 to EAT!

I have a man who is always there for me through thick and thin.

We're not a couple,however, we claimed to be best friends.

We're always there for one another like how a best friend always does.

But we both find it weird when we told our friends we're best friends.

It is also funny when others thought we're a couple or he used to be my ex-bf.

We never had any relationship status with one another, NEVER.

We're just happy to have one another and we like the ways things are between us.

No touching, no kissing just joking, giggling, sharing, texting and simple warm-hugs for one another and we will feel as though we're flying and we'll be laughing like there's no tomorrow.

We never thought of being one another's lover, we're cool with the unknown relationship status we have for one another.

 Well, maybe we're behaving like couples, that's why some of our friends said.

And why am I mentioning about him in my blog?

I just want to say sometimes most people see two friends and the bond they have with one another should be ended up being in relationship.

But for the minority, some love are indescribable and things are better off being the way it is, and not being in a relationship doesn't mean love cannot be formed.

 Love is anything and everything.

You're the owner of your own love story, you be the hero/ heroin in it and define love your way.

Love is what you think, feel and see.

Love is amazing.

Love doesn't involves boyfriend/ girlfriend only.

Love is basically everything and anything in your daily life.

And that is why, Love is beautiful in its own ways.

:)

When i thought April was mean to me, I was wrong.

April was just teaching me how to stay strong, positive and sensible.

Thanks Amir for the chocolate, hug and heart ^^

I love you, for loving me and accepting me who I am.

I am fortunate to have friends who love me the way I true-ly am.

I always wish I'm pretty, smarter and happier.

But as time pass by and I was spending quality time with my lovely friends,

I realised that being pretty, smarter and happier were just excuses for me to be sad.

I am pretty, smart and happy with my life.

Having wonderful friends who would tell me the truth, parents who keep on trying to support the family and not giving up on any of their children, siblings who make me happy and grateful for being a supporting pillar when my parents aint around, what more happiness do I want in my life?

Me having a stable GPA, being able to juggle my teenage life with full of school works yet working part-time, and not blaming work for making me drenched and tired at school. I guess I am pretty smart. What more do I want to make myself feel I'm smart?

I still have some males admiring me the way I am right now. Some people asking me out for a date. Some strangers thinking I'm adorable. I am pretty the way I am.

Afterall I'm Mahirah :)

I laugh Mahirahly, think Mahirahly, joke Mahirahly, talk Mahirahly and pretty Mahirahly.

<3

And finally, meet my another BF.

Niall Horan ^^

what is love?

Woke up in the early afternoon, read my inbox.
Haziq sms: "I still love you. But i don't think you ever love me, right? I'll still wait for you. I hope things end between you and her. " Ni lah ex ku sms ku, mahirah. Hahaha. Kekek pe? Ku leh jadi gile bace sms die. Kau dah bangun lom nie? Dah kul 12pm nie.









What is love people?
How come a 13 year old girl could sms a guy and tell him she loves him, does she really know what love is?
Love is a crucial word.
Love isn't a word that you could say to anyone.
Love comes in various forms.
Love can bring you happiness.
Yet saddness too.
Love isn't a game.
Love can be shared among others.
Love isn't something that comes into your life easily, and it's also isn't something that can be forgotten that easily.
That's all i know about Love.
Pathetic uh?
OH well.

 

what a nice coffee.

hehe.

i wish i know how to make cappuccino like that.

why is a heart shape use to tell us that's a love sign?

 

hey gamblers/ casino lovers/ best dealer!

you could express your love to your loved ones with something you love to play with.

hehe.

how cute!

 

your sms

your sms starts my day.
your sensetive side makes me sad.
your laughter makes me smile.
your tears make me feel horrible.
your smile makes me fall for you.
i think i'm falling for you.
oh fuck, i lovehate to be in love.
the feeling is greatsucks.
i lovehate the word 'love'.

This drama makes me cry.

Though i know what might happen next, i still cry while watching the story.

love's greatsucks.

bye.