I thought I'll be fine

Hi, I'm Mahirah

 

"I'm not fine" is not easy to tell as compared to "I'm fine" 

I walked home crying because I miss you so much. I can't believe it has been 2years since you've left.

It's always this time of the month, I feel like shit. :(

I still text your number. I still wait like a fool. I still hope for a miracle to happen. I guess miracle only exists when both parties are still living. So how can I still foolishly hoping for a miracle when you ain't even here?

I deleted all your pictures. I thought that will be the fastest way for me to stop thinking about you. However, I forgot that my brain is still working. The memories we spent in the past still linger in my mind whenever the time of the month comes. 

I hate this. I want to see you again but I can't. Good bye? No, I refuse to say that. NO, NO. I need to say Good bye. I didn't even get to meet you for the last time. I'm terribly sorry for delaying our meet-up. That is still my greatest regret in life. 

You were the best person I've ever known yet I didn't appreciated it. I am stupid.

:( Thank you for always loving me.

Iron-Man 3

Hi, I'm Mahirah

This is frustrating. Why can't I upload any pictures?!!! :(

I have lots of pretty pictures to share! But blogger is being a drag. NYEHHHHH.

I just came back from watching Iron-man 3! OMG! It's awesome! As usual, I like Tony Stark's character (I shall ignore the part that he was a player). HAHA! It was hilariously sarcastic, funny and touching. AHH~ Iron-man 3 is a success. KEKE.

A few days ago, I went to Singapore River Safari! It was a beautiful place. However, I am still disappointed with how 'they' put Jia Jia in an empty room (EMPTY, I swear with only CCTV). :( I hope she isn't in that room anymore... So visiting the Giant Panda was the only disappointment about SRS. Aside from that, it is a nice place to visit. (I really want to show pictures!!! OHHHH BLOGGERRRRRR, WHYYYYYYY?!!!!)

I know it is wayyyyyy too late to say this but CONGRATS to Akdong Musician for winning K-POP Star 2!!! HEHE. I really like them! I can't wait to see them debut!! I'm loving the OST they made for All about romance! :D

Lastly, I managed to get into NUS! But I think I am going to reject the enrollment! :( I'm going to be busy working. I guess I'm going to study next year instead. NYEHHHHH~ I didn't knew there are so many things to do for UNI enrollment. :/

17th May will be my graduation. Finally, I am going to get my diploma. YIPPIE!!! <3 p="">

I shall upload pictures when Blogger allows me to!!!

Happiness is to be loved for exactly who you are

OVERDUE~

Hi, I'm Mahirah

 I can't wait for April!

I've finally installed Zune on my desktop. So I can easily upload photos~ KEKE.

Kim Jong Kook~

 Halal Bibimbap~

 Yum! Yum! Yum!

 Nice food needs to be appreciated~

 My domo has a companion when I'm not at home~ GEEEEEEE. I'm jealous! :P

Luffy~ Chopper~

Going Merry~

 Shopping~ KEKEKE!

Craving for iced vanilla latte and macrons~

Currently reading:

Completed:

Note to self: Making comparisons can spoil your happiness

Movies to watch:

      I've got to go~ I need to watch the re-run of IRIS 2~ KEKE.  

Anything could happen

Hi, I'm Mahirah

 

 

I can't believe he is gone.

I'm not close to him but this is sad.

Afterall, he was my brother's closest friend.

Condolences to his family.

I hope my brother will be fine.

<3 nbsp="" p="">



Dear Lemon Lima

Hi, I'm Mahirah

This movie will make you recall your childhood memories.

I'm unofficially graduated! YAY!!! I'm very happy but not so happy. I thought after school has finally ended, I would be free but no! I'm busy with my university application. I screwed up my application for NUS because I failed to submit my documents on time (I'm so bad with dates, I swear). And I didn't pay my application fee for SMU on time. Then, there's NTU application which doesn't seemed to end with just application. I still need testimonials. I don't even know if I can get into a University. 

Hey, I've graduated from polytechnic!!!! So I shall not make my life sounds horrible with that never-ending torturous applications.

The truth is I'm not feeling so lousy because yesterday and friday were the best day of my life for 2013. I am serious!!! I managed to meet Kim Jong Kook!!! AHHHH~~~~

He is so good-looking. My sister told me that he was like a living statue! OMG!!! His muscles. I can't!!! He is a sexy beast. Very sexy. OH god. I reallyyyyyy want him to get a good woman to be his wife and have beautiful children!! He is really different as a Running Man member and as an Idol Kim Jong Kook! He is a really shy person especially towards women. He is a pure gentleman! He is really nice to his fans and he has a sexy english accent. HEHE. I want to upload some pictures but I'm too lazy to wait for them to upload. HAHA!!! But I promise to upload them soon! KEKEKE.

Before I end, I shall introduce my most favourite song from one direction's album 'Take Me Home'.

Lyrics:

People say we shouldn’t be together
We're too young to know about forever
But I say they don’t know what they talk talk talkin’ about

Cause this love is only getting stronger
So I don’t wanna wait any longer
I just wanna tell the world that you're mine girlll
Ohh

They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the I love you’s
But I bet you if they only knew
They will just be jealous of us
They don’t know about the up all night’s
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right

Baby they don’t know about
They don’t know about us

Just one touch and I was a believer
Every day it gets a little sweeter
It’s getting better
Keeps getting better all the time girl

They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the I love you’s
But I bet you if they only knew
They will just be jealous of us
They don’t know about the up all night’s
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right

Baby they don’t know about
They don’t know about us

They don’t know how special you are
They don’t know what you’ve done to my heart
They can say anything they want
Cause they don’t know about us

They don’t know what we do best
That’s between me and you our little secret

But I wanna tell em
I wanna tell the world that you're mine girl

They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the I love you’s
But I bet you if they only knew
They will just be jealous of us
They don’t know about the up all night’s
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right

Baby they don’t know about
They don’t know about us

They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the I love you’s
But I bet you if they only knew
They will just be jealous of us
They don’t know about the up all night’s
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right

Baby they don’t know about
They don’t know about us

They don’t know about us
They don’t know about us

To my lovely readers, do take care of your health and stay positive! :)

The simple reason why I'm in tears

Hi, I'm Mahirah

 Because I love a man who can rap.

Leessang did it again. They're awesome. They don't need award to prove their talents.

After you left, I’m always sad

No matter how sad I am, the sadness is not enough

I look for a place to hurt and hide

In front of my dark house, in my stopped car, in front of your house

A life without love is like poverty, the only thing remaining is an empty room

You and I, we’re like day and night, which cannot be together

The only thing we split and shared is longing

You get drunk one night, come to me and fuss that you’re gonna sleep with me

You touch my happy trail and say that you wanna lay down in my arms

You ask me why I’m always so busy and silently cry

You say didn’t mean it and that you always believe me

You and everything of you that always protected me

Has now become longing

Alone between narrow streets in tears

In case someone sees, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

Sit alone on the stairs in front of my house in tears

In case you find out, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

We have bad attachments rather than good attachments^

We fight all the time and go for days without seeing each other

But we wanted each other so much

Because we loved each other, because we couldn’t live without each other

The freckles on your body, the food you can’t eat

When we kiss and made up after fighting

When we tightly held hands while driving

I remember all of those things

Even if you’re not next to me for a moment, I get nervous

After letting you go, I easily get blank

I hate the changing world

I forcefully take out your memories

Your name, face, laughter, scent

There are so many memories you gave to me

There is so much soul that you left to me

They come to life and find to me

I crush them all with the word, love

Alone between narrow streets in tears

In case someone sees, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

Sit alone on the stairs in front of my house in tears

In case you find out, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

My tears, tears, tears

Once again tears, tears, tears

Again silently – I don’t wanna know

It smears my memories

Alone between narrow streets in tears

In case someone sees, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

Sit alone on the stairs in front of my house in tears

In case you find out, I secretly shed tears

I try so hard not to become weak

My tears

If I ever go Korea, I wanna see running man in action. I wanna see super junior, tablo, mblaq and big bang! <3 p="">
Happy Birthday To Kyuhyun Oppa! ^^

KISS YOU!

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

My laptop is spoil, my ezlink card got lost. I'm in pain.

2013 isn't going great :(

[Zayn]
Oh, I just wanna take you anywhere that you like
We could go out any day, any night
Baby I'll take you there, take you there
Baby I'll take you there, yeah

[Harry]
Oh, tell me tell me tell me how to turn your love on
You can get, get anything that you want
Baby just shout it out, shout it out
Baby just shout it out, yeah

[Liam]
And if you,
You want me too
Let's make a move

Yeah, so tell me girl if every time we

[All]
To-o-uch
You get this kind of ru-u-ush
Baby, say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
If you don't wanna take it slow
And you just wanna take me home
Baby, say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Harry]
And let me kiss you

[Zayn]
Oh, baby, baby, don't you know you got what I need
Looking so good from your head to your feet
Come on come over here, over here
Come on come over here, yeah

[Niall]
Oh, I just wanna show you off to all of my friends
Making them drool down their chinny-chin-chins
Baby, be mine tonight, mine tonight
Baby, be mine tonight, yeah

[Liam]
And if you,
You want me too
Let's make a move

[Zayn]
Yeah, so tell me girl if every time we

[All]
To-o-uch
You get this kind of ru-u-ush
Baby, say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
If you don't wanna take it slow (c'mon)
And you just wanna take me home
Baby, say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Zayn]
And let me kiss you [x5]

[All]
C'mon
Na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na

[Louis]
Yeah, so tell me, girl, if every time we

To-o-uch
You get this kind of ru-u-ush
Baby, say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
If you don't wanna take it slow
And you just wanna take me home
Baby, say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Every time we to-o-uch
You get this kind of ru-u-ush
Baby, say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
If you don't wanna take it slow
And you just wanna take me home
Baby, say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Harry]
And let me kiss you

I swear the MV makes me laugh. OMG, they're so dorky. In love with them all over again. ^^

 

EVERYTIME

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

2013 is here.
The world has not ended.
I'm graduating soon.
Life goes on.
I'm going to be 20.

Dear Simple Plan, please continue to sing good songs. :)

EVERYTIME- SIMPLE PLAN

We talked about our lives
Until the sun came out
And now I'm thinking about
How I wish I could go back
Just for one more day
One more day with you
Everytime I see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Ever since you walked away
It left my life in disarray
All I want is one more day
It's all I need
Is one more day with you
When the car broke down
We just kept walking along
'Til we hit this town
There was nothing there at all
But that was all ok
We spent all our money
On stupid things
But if I look back now
I'd probably give it all away
Just for one more day
One more day with you
Everytime I see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Ever since you walked away
It left my life in disarray
All I want is one more day
It's all I need
Is one more day with you
Now I'm sitting here
Like we used to do
I think about my life
And now there's nothing I won't do
Just for one more day
One more day with you
Everytime I see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Everytime I hear your name
Everytime I feel the same
It's like it all falls into place
Everything, everything feels right
You walked away
Just one more day
It's all I need
Is one more day with you

Simple Plan songs all over again.
E.N.D

SICK

Hi, I'm Mahirah

When life gets tough.

I've been hearing 'sick' stories. And what I meant by sick is humans using violence against humans.

I was talking to my sister and I told her that her school isn't so bad then she told me few 'sick' stories about students from her school. I felt like vomiting when she told me those stories. I'm so afraid of the world. To be exact, I am SO SO SO afraid of the coming generation. Things are going too fast, generation knows facts too quickly. It's scary. Sometimes, I feel out of place when I talk to someone younger than me.

I've been reading news related to discrimination, religious intolerance and violence. I hate to know that some people in this world are suffering because of stupid beliefs. I swear beliefs should never exist if it is going to make people go insane enough to resort to violence and become merciless. I just wish I can live in another planet and bring my family and friends with me.

Leader will be back. He promised.

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

 I feel like my cutting my hair short!!! HAHA!

ELF feelings :(

OMG. This feels so weird!!! I don't know. Although he's not my bias but but but him leaving. I feel empty.  Haiz. But he'll be back soon because 2 years will be over soon. And while waiting for him, my bias will be back. Envy those fangirls who do not have to worry about their bias leaving to army because they like the one much much younger than my bias. So their bias have more time ahead before enlisting into the army. 

I will never forget you. I will wait for you. I promise. HEHE :D

I'm so tired. I'm so glad school starts in the afternoon tomorrow. However, I feel as though my afternoon will be wasted. IDK.

MAXSTEP makes me happy though. LOL. MAXSTEP. HAHA!

OMG OMG OMG. LOOK AT HOW SEXY EUNHYUK OPPA IS!!! HAHA.

I swear he looks like tablo. HAHAHA!

I'll end it here.

Oh do listen to Lee Hi's new song. It's great. Ignore the music video because she looks awkward to me. HAHA. :DDD

"It's hard but nothing is easy."

Annyeong

Hi, I'm Mahirah

I miss them ^^

HEHE. I'm back. I thought of letting this blog rot with stalkers, unwanted visitors and loners. But then I realised that this blog might not even rot because it has never been discovered by others. HAHA!

Internship has finally ended for me! ^^ No need to wake up so early and come back home looking as though I've aged more than 10 years. ^^ HEHE. But the bad news is I've school to attend. SAVE ME!!!

SCHOOL.. I have plenty of essays to write, unnecessary modules to attend and exams to seat for. I'm not looking forward to any of it but I have to get all those done. OH, School life sucks. BUT BUT BUT after all these are done, I'm going to graduate! OMG. I'm graduating. I'm graduating soon. YAY! Few more months and I'm graduating!!! WEE~ WEE! WEE~

SO am I going to university after this? My answer is NO. HAHA. Why? Let's just keep it there. HEHE.

I can't wait to graduate. I'll be the happiest girl once graduation is here. MUAHAHA.

This month is a great month for me, this does not include the fact that school has started but, I am happy that EPIK HIGH is back!! WOO~ EPIK HIGH. The charismatic TABLO is back with his mates Mithra Jin and DJ Tukutz ^^ HEHEHEHE. KEKE. The best trio in K-POP is back. MUAHAHAHAHA. I'm in love with all the songs but I have to say that Park Bom's voice is annoying in UP. I still like Park Bom though cause she is an amazing singer. 

I love 'Don't hate me' Music Video! ^^

"Everybody hates me but you love me and I love you. OH OH OH (Woah OH OH)" HAHAHA. 

I swear tablo is my ideal guy. HAHAHA. I can't. LOL. I'm blushing right now. I swear. HEHEHE.

OK, I'll end it here. Going to watch WGM. HEHE. ^^


Wishing a day of smiles for my readers :D