guess what have i changed?

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

meet my 16years old boyfriend, Callan McAuliffe. HAHAHAHA!

Hey, I really wanna thank those who read my blog and gain more interest in artists whom i've did mentioned in any of my blog posts:)

It is INSANE to know that every SINGLE day 100-200 people around the world reads your blog.

Gosh, I don't mind if it's tumblr but for an ordinary teenager who blogs about random stuffs and is living in a small country, Singapore, it is a pretty, big thing. 

HAHA!

Okay, I'm starting to talk nonsense.

As my titles goes...

I've changed my blog design, and the most obvious change will be my background!

HUHU~

I'm very happy and satisfied with the changes i've made!

Also, I won't mind reading my blog everyday even though i don't update it :D

HEHE.

Do remember to scroll down to the very end and see more photos of my favourite actors, boyfriend and myself. 

i love shoes.

do you know that shoes can actually make a lady more confident, sexier and outstanding :)

that's why some of ladies best friend is shoes :D

a big turn

Hi, I'm Mahirah

see the chubby girl above? yes, that's me. hehe.

Feelings come and go?

I don't know.

So confused and tangled in a ridiculous relationship with a man called 'Amir'

Found out from Alice that Amir been texting Wahidah lately.

I'm not surprised because he once asked me about Wahidah's character.

:|

He seems to enjoy texting Wahidah.

Plus they did went out for a movie together.

Awesome lah Amir.

Finally he has someone he has a crush on.

Well for me, on the other hand, is still lost and ignorant about crush, love and relationship.

Basically, i do not have any commitment on any of them :(

However, i still believe that one day, i will fall in love with someone. :)

HAHAHA!

Btw, i do have a crush on someone but not any more.

HAHA!

Winner right? :)

Been playing with clay, colour pencils, markers and pencil.

I felt younger while doing Art& Craft.

I miss kindergarten, primary and secondary school years.

Drew domo using half of A3 size drawing block, coloured it using colour pencil, darken the outline using markers, damn didn't took photo of it.

Will try to take a picture of it soon cause my sister kept our drawings and i'm working later.

GRR.

Hopefully i'll get the picture by wednesday :)

Hehe.

Okay, that's not the main point which i wanna say.

The MAIN point is both my hands felt tired colouring the domo :(

Drawing a huge image really requires a lot of effort to colour it and makes it look nice.

If, one day someone were to draw a Domo on an A3 size paper and colour it using colour pencil, i would fall in love with that person. REALLY.

Okay, maybe not till i wanna be in a relationship with that person.

Wait, will that person even exist?

HAHA!

Went IMM to grab some breather :)

It was fun since i went out with my younger sister whom i haven't really hang out with in a very very long time :D

I think i'm going to be super super chubby,

been eating unhealthy foods: BigMac, Chicken Nuggets, Fries, Chicken Sausage, Chicken, Ice-cream, Chocolate, Mashed Potato.

But i don't care!

HEHE! ^^

Cause i am happy the way i am.

:)

:)

I want to be a wise human being.

Being wise is all that matters in this world.

I like to act cute in front of my loved ones.

HAHA!

i was harsh

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

I'm a HAPPY girl!

The previous post was a sad post.

This is going to be a total opposite post :)

Yes, I am feeling very positive and amazing right now! :D

I guess no matter how much you tell other friends about your feelings and thinking,

nothing beats sharing about them with your best friend :)

You will feel extremely great and your burden seems to be so so much lighter.

You start to forget about your fear, your negative thinking about yourself turn to positive mindset, everything changes to be amazing and wonderful.

I believe it is the power of best friend that made me feel this way :D

I am really really thankful to GOD for letting me know an amazing girl to be my best friend :)

5/4 was an awesome day too:)

Had a GPG outing after so many months of not meeting and going out together as a group.

It was an outstanding and successful event.

I hope Yati and Atikah like their presents :)

I really enjoyed myself preparing a surprise party for Yati, blow balloons, eat cake and snacks, play games and wet myself at the water area on the basement level :D

I felt really happy playing and laughing with them, i feel young at heart, you know ^^

HEHE!

Although there was(were) an awkward moment(s) during some moment, i still think that this event was successful as all of us attended it ^^

I hope that GPG will last till forever <3

I am glad that i'm working in POPEYES and got to know them.

OH2, really thankful to Aishah for the lobang that there is job vancancy :)

If it were for her, i won't get to know awesome people from RP, SP and meet my left-handed partner on my first day of work.<3

Niall Horan

I will never get sick and tired of looking at his photos :D

10 things i like about myself

1. I am cute

2. I am sensible

3. I am caring

4. I love my family and friends

5. I am truthful to myself

6. I always reflect on my actions

7. I am responsible

8. I have dimples

9. I am cheerful

10. I am thoughtful

Love notes!

Smitha, I really love you! 

Want to thank you  for everything that you've done for me for the past 6years!

I am really glad to have you as my best friend.

From you, i have learnt to appreciate myself and my loved ones.

Thank you for constantly making me laugh, crazy and happy whenever i am with you ^^

I like you for being my best friend who really understands me the most, able to handle the worst sides of mine and accept me for whom i am.

Smitha, you are the best ^^

Amir, thanks for being there for me when i was down and lost.

You were there to guide me with your realistic quotes and beliefs.

I will never forget those times where you were there for me when i needed someone to talk to the most :)

I like you alot and i hope that one day you'll find an amazing woman to be your wife ^^

Alice, thanks for constantly making me feel great for some time of my life when we hang out.

You're pretty inside and outside, i really admire your strong personality.

I am glad that I have change part of your life.

I like you my babyGF.

My mind is everything.

thanks for reading

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

I kept telling myself to be strong.

I'm afraid of everything around me.

What is wrong with me?

All the ugly pasts kept on haunting me day by day causing me to have lack of sleep and i feel shagged all the time though i haven't even start my day at all.

When will i stop being paranoid, scared and insecure? :|

What a pathetic soul, I am.

I'm in a very bad state.

So bad, that only i know how painful it is.

I am always laughing, smiling and joking around my friends but only i know how bad my state is that i think i could really go insane, wreck everything around me, without a warning. :(

Day by day, i kept on feeling bad, guilty and hatred towards myself.

I find myself pathetic when I look at myself in the mirror.

So pathetic that I am afraid of myself.

Till, i didn't really look at myself in the mirror for more than 5mins.

:(

Not only that, I think i am ugly.

Really really ugly.

I can never be pretty wait, I am never pretty :(

How can I be pretty when I have an ugly heart?

I will always have this ugly heart with me, no matter how hard i try to change my appearance or style.

Till the day, I told myself my heart isn't ulgy, that's the day i think i am pretty.

And will that day ever come?

NO, it will never come.

Because I have an ugly heart which can never turn to be pretty.

I have myself to blame for having an ugly heart :(

I guess I am born to be ugly :(

I own some pictures.

Here there are:

The day when the sisters went hungry and decided to have a small korean party style. hehe ^^

sister <3

I really love domo.

Have i told you that i bought domo's mechanical pencil and notebook?

<3 

work, work, work.

hi greeny rubbery-wirey hairband.

bath, bath, bath.

sushi, wasabi <3

And I love Mac's Breakfast ^^

I love my prepaid. HEHE ^^

A friend of mine made me feel guilty for saying i have an ugly heart when he mentioned this to me: Isn't it ironic that a girl has an ugly heart when she still cares about her loved ones although she, herself, is struggling with her own life?

:(

Whatever it is, I think I have an ugly heart.

My pasts tell it all.

Sadly, even my present too.

:(