It's never easy

Hi, I'm Mahirah

Confident is what I'm lacking.

I'm back!!!!

HEHE.

OMG, how long has it been since I last blogged?

2Months? Or maybe more than that?

HAHAHAHAHA!

I'm such a bad blogger.

I swear I miss blogging.

Everytime I read people's blogs, I promised myself that I'll start blogging again.

But then, I failed to keep that simple promise.

Nevertheless, I am here- blogging.

I have so much to blog.

But then, I am lazy to type them.

Let me just summarize how my life been for the past months.

Before that, let me come out with lame excuses why I didn't blogged for a long time.

Here's one 'reason' why I've stopped blogging:

My internship has started.

As some of you might have known, I am a pig. I could sleep for more than 12hours if no one bothers to ring me up or waking me up. Since I've started working/ interning, I can't have 12hours of sleep anymore. So, in order for me to have enough amount of sleep, I have to sleep earlier than usual. Nowadays, after I've reached home from work, I will eat dinner, bath, watch tv then sleep. I will sleep around 10.30pm and wake up around 6am or maybe later than that. HAHAHAHA! So I've no time to blog at all. Afterall, I prioritize sleep :)

Another reason is I'm lazy.

I know blogging will only take few mins of my life.

But I feel lazy to switch on my laptop, type my password, wait for my laptop to load and type out a blog post. Yes, laziness kicks in when it strikes 10pm. Even though I have time during the weekend, I still feel lazy. HAHAHA! Yes, I am lazy. In short, I am a lazy pig :)

Strong.
How do people define someone is strong?
I don't know.
People keep telling me that I'm strong.
So I keep telling myself that I'm a strong person when people keep on throwing stones at me.
Funny. Because I'm not strong.
I'm a girl who still feels scared to step out of the house.
Once I'm out, I don't feel happy at all.
I just wanna stay home.
Home is the best place to be.
I hate the world outside.
I know nice people exist but where can I find them?
Even if I find them, will they want me?
I guess not, because I'm not nice enough.
I'm not nice. I wish I am.

Lost.
Losing you is the worst feeling I've ever had.
After you left, I learn to cherish my loved ones more.
I cry everytime I read the letter you gave me.
I wish you could still write letters for me.
I'm sorry for not being there with you when you needed me the most.
Now all I have is regret when it comes to you.
I know you're at a safe place so I shouldn't worry about you.
I have to look forward and not back.
But I can't help but go back because the past was the memories of US.
Sadly US is no longer in my present or future.
I miss you.

"Life is a bitch." - Amir
"No, you are the bitch. You mess up your own life. You shouldn't try to blame life but yourself." - Mahirah & Alice Tan

 

Happy Valentine's Day ^^

Hi, I'm Mahirah

Happy Valentine's Day!

It's February and this is my first post for Feb' 12.

HEHE.

How's life been for most of you?

Awesome? Crazy? Normal? Bad? Don't want to think about it?

Let's just forget everything.

Put your work, feelings, emotions, stress, pressure, all those aside.

 

Imagine we're on our way to milky way.

You may want to land on Pluto, Jupiter, Neptune...

Just land on a planet you really want be on.

Look at what the planet is made of.

Rocks.

Many different kinds of rocks.

Some couldn't be found on Earth.

You're feeling thirsty.

But there's no drink!

So you have to go back to your spacecraft.

But your spacecraft is wrecked?!!!!!

'Someone' broke into your craft!

Is it 'Someone'?

Or is it?

------------------------------------------------

HAHAHA!

Ok, I'll end it here.

LOL.

Hope you're feeling better.

Or am I making you feel worse?

HAHAHAHA!

Sorry, I'm not good at making people feel better. :|

Anyways, if life gets tough...

Just blank out your mind and let your crazy imaginations run wild.

It's fun yknow~

HAHAHAHA!

Exams are coming and here I am blogging.

I have no mood to study at all.

It's not like legal is easy or I'm that smart.

I'm lazy.

Need to control my laziness and start studying!

BAHHHH~

I HATE studying.

Who doesn't right?

HAHAHAHA!

I guess I'll end my post here.

So sorry for the boring post. :/

For those celebrating valentine's day, hope it was a good one.

And for those who doesn't, Valentine's day isn't the only day to show your affection/ love to someone special :) Also, being single isn't a bad thing :D

Doesn't the food make you smile? :)

Pretty Cupcake! ^^

CHOCOLATE!!!

I love my readers.

Thank you for reading :)

VAS HAPPENIN

Hi, I'm Mahirah

I'm OLD.

It's been over a month!

Yes, a month and 5days.

That's the number of month and days that I've been missing from blogging. :|

My dear friends who have been waiting for me to update my blog, here's a long post for you.

Wait.

I'm not sure if it's going to be long but I'll make it long.

I'll make it long enough for me to say: I'm tired from typing a blog post.

HEHE.

I swear I miss blogging but I didn't blog.

I did want to blog but I didn't.

Wanna know why?

It's because -> I'm LAZY.

Yes! I'm super LAZY.

Not only that, I've been busy with school work, preparing Alice's birthday and of course resting my weak, fragile and soon to be 50 year old body.

I'm not kidding about my body behaving like 50.

Yes, I have a weak body.

I feel extremely tired every morning I wake up.

I always want time to stay at 12.

Not experiencing any sunrise/ sunset.

Just clouds.

Beautiful, pretty and white clouds shaping in many cute forms of humans faces.

HAHA!

This may sound contradicting but I'm learning Pilates now.

HAHA! So much for saying that I have a body which acts 50.

And I'm doing Pilates?!

HAHA!

OMG, Pilates is cool.

HAHA!

I'm determined that I can do split by the end of Feb.

LOL.

Me doing split?!

HAHAHAHA!

I'll only look dumb.

But I'm determined you see.

I'm also learning dancing again.

Dancing with Alice Tan.

HEHE.

B-Girls wannabe.

LOL.

Kidding.

We are just goofing around dancing to Korean and English songs.

HAHA!

But hey, it's still dancing though! :)

I also play the keyboard again.

Downloaded few piano covers.

HEHE.

Yes, indeed I'm learning alot of things this year.

HAHA!

I'm going to play badminton too during the weekend.

LOL.

I guess my body feels old because I'm doing too many things.

Omg now I have the urge to do Pilates before I sleep tonight.

HAHA!

Tomorrow, I'll be having presentation and I have to wear Formal.

YUCKS.

Formal.

I hate formal wear!

I really do.

Now I dunno if I should wear heels tmr.

Should I?

Even if I do wear, I'll be wearing slipper to school then I'll change it.
LOL.
Not much of a difference right?
HAHAHA!

Btw, my phone memory has problem and I had to reformat it.
So I've officially lost all my photos, songs and videos.
:(
Sad.
And I didn't managed to transfer them to my laptop to upload pretty images I took from Haw Par Villa.

:/

BOO.

So instead of uploading images I have, I'll be uploading photos of my favourite IDOLS and Singers ^^

HEHEHEHEHE.

I hope January has been a great month for most of you.

If it isn't, don't worry January is only the beginning :)

Merry Christmas

Hi, I'm Mahirah.

10 Days MIA and here I am~

So Christmas is going to end soon in my country.

I can't believe that I spent my christmas sleeping, lazing around and watching movies.

So yea.

It's been home + home + home holidays for me.

Was it a bore?

Yes, indeed it was.

Why don't I go out?

First- the weather.

It's such a pain.

Second- most of my friends are overseas

And that makes me terribly lonely.

Third- my sleeping habits are haywire

I don't need to elaborate on that.

I did went out in the weekdays but when it comes to friday-sunday, my laziness just kicks in.

Bad habit?

Nah, i don't think so because I managed to save money which is important for my future.

Next week, most of my friends will be back.

So I'll meet them for a short time.

Now, that's a lie.

I'm not going to meet them for a short time but for a long period of time.

Then head home and start on my assignments.

That's the plan.

But most probably, none of that will go as it was planned.

HAHA!

Although I was at home, I did whatsapp my love ones.

Like Faiz who is in Singapore and Fendi who just book out.

Reading our convos make me LMAO~

HAHA!

Funny dudes~

HEHE ^^

I'm glad that I still have them in Singapore.

LOL XD

Or my holiday = a total MISERY :|

Btw, I am a happygirl93 because Samuel Larsen.

You don't know who is he?

OMG!

Seriously?!

Okay, I sound like a bitch.

HAHA!

Samuel Larsen is a cool dude from the Glee Project and he is the winner.

Well he deserves it, he is talented and cool~

LOL.

So how does he looks like?

(credits: TUMBLR)

So what was I trying to tell you?

Oh!

He replied my tweet~

Though it was just a 'done'

Yes, just a 'done'.

It still makes my day~

I mean.

Nvm, Fangirling mode~

HAHAHAHAHA!

Thank you Samuel Larsen for replying me! ^^

Also, to taufik batisah who replied me like a month ago.

LOL XD

I am looking forward to a day whereby either eunhyuk, leetuek, shin dong, donghae, siwon, yesung, kibum, heechul, kyuhyun, ryeowook or super junior + harry, louis, niall, liam, zayn or one direction replied my tweet.

Then I'll be dead for more than a min, fangirling, dead and the cycle goes on.

LOL XD

2011 is a great year.

Looking forward to 2012 :)

<3

Thank you for reading.

I love you all. :)

OH NO.

Been trying to upload the rest of the pictures for 15mins but error just appeared!

AHJKAKGHSALKAHKSLJ!!!

Nvm.

I'll upload tmr.

:)

Till then lovely~

christmas is coming

Hi, I'm Mahirah

Couldn't agree more to the above picture! :D

So it's 10days away to christmas..

I'm not celebrating the festive but I'm happy when this festive comes.

It's a joyful festive afterall! :)

HEHE!

It's been days since I've blogged.

Not that I'm busy or lazy.

Okay, maybe I was lazy but the fact beneath the truth is I was sick :(

Oh, I'm still sick.

But it isn't as bad as it was when I was sick on the first day..

Let's not spoil the post by saying anything more about being s--k.

It's my holiday~

Although it's only 2week, I'm still happy.

A break is all I need right now.

Maybe not really.

Since there are school work to be done during the holiday.

Anyways, it is my HOLIDAY~

WEE~

There's plenty of things I wanna do.

Read fanfics, watch at least 4 movies, meet-up sessions with friends, play at least 7 different online games and stay fit ^^

I'm going to nap soon.

HAHA!

Like a pig.

I just ate nasi briyani.

For those who doesn't know what it looks like..
It's this-->

credits: Flickr

I forgot to took a picture of my meal so I need to find it from the website.

LOL.

Till then lovelies~

Who are we again?

Hi, I'm Mahirah

Ice-cream ^^

Foolish...

I am.

Yes, I admit.

How can I cry for someone I don't even talk to?

How can I smile for someone who will never notice me?

How can I be happy for someone who doesn't know I exist?

Whatever it is, I am going to continue crying, smiling and be happy for them.

Tomorrow, I'm going to continue renaming my files.

It's going to be tiring but for the sake of making my files neat, organize so that I can find the files easily, I need to do it.

HAHA!

Today was a relaxing day.

Okay, I lied.

I was nervous for my mock interview that I woke up early and snooze off every 10mins while waiting for time to pass by~

I did well for the interview and am happy for the fact that one assignment is over ^^,

I'm tired.

Going to sleep soon.

Didn't do my tutorial.

Will do it tmr morning only if I manage to wake up early.

HAHA!

Till then~

I love BigBangTheory, RunningMan, SuperJunior, OneDirection & 90210