Hi, I'm Mahirah
Confident is what I'm lacking.
I'm back!!!!
HEHE.
OMG, how long has it been since I last blogged?
2Months? Or maybe more than that?
HAHAHAHAHA!
I'm such a bad blogger.
I swear I miss blogging.
Everytime I read people's blogs, I promised myself that I'll start blogging again.
But then, I failed to keep that simple promise.
Nevertheless, I am here- blogging.
I have so much to blog.
But then, I am lazy to type them.
Let me just summarize how my life been for the past months.
Before that, let me come out with lame excuses why I didn't blogged for a long time.
Here's one 'reason' why I've stopped blogging:
My internship has started.
As some of you might have known, I am a pig. I could sleep for more than 12hours if no one bothers to ring me up or waking me up. Since I've started working/ interning, I can't have 12hours of sleep anymore. So, in order for me to have enough amount of sleep, I have to sleep earlier than usual. Nowadays, after I've reached home from work, I will eat dinner, bath, watch tv then sleep. I will sleep around 10.30pm and wake up around 6am or maybe later than that. HAHAHAHA! So I've no time to blog at all. Afterall, I prioritize sleep :)
Another reason is I'm lazy.
I know blogging will only take few mins of my life.
But I feel lazy to switch on my laptop, type my password, wait for my laptop to load and type out a blog post. Yes, laziness kicks in when it strikes 10pm. Even though I have time during the weekend, I still feel lazy. HAHAHA! Yes, I am lazy. In short, I am a lazy pig :)
How do people define someone is strong?
I don't know.
People keep telling me that I'm strong.
So I keep telling myself that I'm a strong person when people keep on throwing stones at me.
Funny. Because I'm not strong.
I'm a girl who still feels scared to step out of the house.
Once I'm out, I don't feel happy at all.
I just wanna stay home.
Home is the best place to be.
I hate the world outside.
I know nice people exist but where can I find them?
Even if I find them, will they want me?
I guess not, because I'm not nice enough.
I'm not nice. I wish I am.
Lost.
Losing you is the worst feeling I've ever had.
After you left, I learn to cherish my loved ones more.
I cry everytime I read the letter you gave me.
I wish you could still write letters for me.
I'm sorry for not being there with you when you needed me the most.
Now all I have is regret when it comes to you.
I know you're at a safe place so I shouldn't worry about you.
I have to look forward and not back.
But I can't help but go back because the past was the memories of US.
Sadly US is no longer in my present or future.
I miss you.
"Life is a bitch." - Amir
"No, you are the bitch. You mess up your own life. You shouldn't try to blame life but yourself." - Mahirah & Alice Tan
